“You live nine months with this little person inside of you. You go everywhere together. You’re never alone. The little person starts to move and hiccup and kick you. You know this little person. He is a part of you,” But then, he’s just gone. You’re alone. Part of your soul was just ripped from your body, and you’re never going to get it back. Yes, I can hold my sons, hear their heartbeats, but they aren’t physically a part of me anymore. For me, this brought on a crushing wave of loneliness, abandonment and shame that I never could’ve anticipated. This was a new level of hell for me.”
That is just one of the experiences numerous women endure when suffering from Postpartum Depression. Feelings of depression, sadness, anxiety and other physically and mentally taxing emotions can linger and amplify, interrupting their life and sometimes even the ability to care for themselves.
The mother that provided the insight described how she had struggled with depression since her teens and has taken meds every day since high school. She said that she was terrified to stop taking her medication, which includes 80 to 90mg of Prozac each day, during both her pregnancies.
“Going off my meds was like voluntarily walking into the flaming gates of hell and not knowing if you’ll ever be able to get back again. I’ve been to that hell several times.” She was put on 20mg while pregnant.
After birth, she was put back on Prozac and “added a couple of others.” After doctors tried prescribing Percocet and Hydrocodone, she said she pushed back and instead called a friend, who got her some Apple Pie cannabis.
She reported the beneficial effects of cannabis on her second hit. This included relieving much of the physical pain from an emergency c-section. Her postpartum depression symptoms began to subside, as well. “This gloomy rain cloud of haze, confusion and sadness in my brain just lifted and was gone. This huge elephant that has been sitting on my chest holding me down for months just decided he was going to get up for a bit and give me a break.”
She added, “Finally, I had some release. I could be present and enjoy my new family. I was no longer a worthless puddle of tears.”
A 2013 analysis of postpartum drug use and depressive symptoms noted some studies around the subject. It also pointed out that no studies directly studied postpartum drug use and depression.
“I stopped smoking when I found out I was pregnant but had a really hard time after,” explained another mom who asked to be unnamed. She reported feeling a range of emotions consisting of depression and anxiety. While taking care of her first child, she made a decision. “When she was 3 months old I started again at night to relax…it helped tremendously with anxiety, sleep and mood,” said the mom.
She said that the first child also had colic, which she believes was soothed by the marijuana being consumed via her breast milk as well. While the use of cannabis is still debated by medical professionals, the mother said she formed her decision on studies conducted in Jamaican villages. One such study from 1991 found “no significant differences” except when at the 30 day mark when children of parents who used had more favorable scores on autonomic stability and reflex tests.
Kevin Gilliland, Psy.D., executive director of the outpatient treatment facility Innovation 360, offered an alternative solution for those considering the idea. “What we do know with some degree of confidence is that THC or CBD inhaled or ingested will end up in breast milk. So, if you’re still breastfeeding, it’s not worth the risk and you may need to switch to formula if you want to use CBD to manage postpartum depression.”
Dr. Patricia Frye is the Chief Medical Officer at HelloMD, added her 2 cents:
“In addition to using cannabis, it is very important for the patient to be under the care of a mental health provider. If she is breastfeeding, I would only recommend cannabis if all other treatments known to be safe for newborns have been exhausted.”
With additional data required before any conclusive findings can be made, PPD users are cautioned with their cannabis use. Like most mental health conditions, the jury is out on the efficacy of cannabis as a treatment, either beneficial or adverse. Each case is different, and all who are considering cannabis as a treatment should consult with their medical professionals first.
An what do the studies say?
This research provides data on the development of 59 Jamaican children, from birth to age 5 years, whose mothers used marijuana during pregnancy. Approximately one-half of the sample used marijuana during pregnancy and were matched with non-users according to age, parity, and socioeconomic status. Testing of the children was done at 1, 3, and 30 days of age with the Brazelton Neonatal Behavioral Assessment Scales and at ages 4 and 5 years with the McCarthy Scales of Children’s Abilities. Data about the child’s home environment and temperament were collected from direct observations as well as from standardized questionnaires. The results show no significant differences in developmental testing outcomes between children of marijuana-using and non-using mothers except at 30 days of age when the babies of users had more favourable scores on two clusters of the Brazelton Scales: autonomic stability and reflexes. The developmental scores at ages 4 and 5 years were significantly correlated to certain aspects of the home environment and to regularity of basic school (preschool) attendance.